is learning that I can't fix a family relationship. A close family member at that. Now, it's all about limited and appropriate contact and what that means to preserve myself in order to improve what's there now.
It's really sad.
It was inevitable.
It sucks.
It was made worse by my infertility and adoption journey. What that brought out in the relationship was the stark contrast of personalities. One fiercely independent, the other codependent. One willing to get down and dirty in the muck of shitty feelings in order to healthfully move through the shit, another who has swept everything under the rug for years. One willing to attempt to share the journey and personal feelings about infertility and adoption, and another who can't handle the pain. One who endured being treated like a child because the other just. can't. handle. it.
It's broken and it will never be fixed. I hurt so bad.
My thoughts are with you. (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteThat sounds really hard. I'm sorry you're going through that.
ReplyDeleteSounds very difficult. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you feel so low. Some truths are so hard.
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard to be true to yourself when it creates distance with someone you're connected to.
ReplyDeleteBut there's really no other way but to be true to yourself.
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I'm so sorry that you are hurting. I do think this hurting will lead to healing, I really do, but it sucks right now. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI hope the pain of this gives way to something that will give you hope.
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