I've noticed that I tend to blog by jumping off from someone else's topic because reading their post brings up my own emotions and experiences. Not sure if that's right and it makes me a little less than original but hey, whatever.
So, credit where credit is due and I read Denver Jen's blog about "Up". I haven't seen the movie yet but at least I now am steeled against watching it because it is so weird how scenes in movies can hit like a ton of bricks.
*spoiler alert*!
Case in point. "Julie and Julia" I saw this movie with a girlfriend and was merrily enthralled with Meryl Streep as Julia and totally unprepared for a 20 second scene. When Julia gets the letter than her sister is pregnant, I felt the punch in the gut, lump in my throat and tears. For me the scene was so poignant and brought back the rush of emotions that I had felt about a year and half earlier when I found out my SIL was insta-pregnant with her second. After that scene I spent a good ten minutes hoping that my friend hadn't noticed and even now, when I think about watching it the familiar lump in my throat rises up.
Just another case of the "What the hell was that!"
We're avoiding two Christmas parties this year because I'm still not up for it. Yeah, sure I'm "paper pregnant", but it doesn't fix infertility and most people don't understand that.
I'll admit I was in the theater with 5 girlfriends and when that scene came on I cried silent tears so I didn't draw any attention to myself (did the same thing when I saw "UP") because I knew how bad she was hurting. It's weird how we want to get the news of IF out there, but yet we don't want to be constantly reminded of it. Atleast I don't.
ReplyDeleteI don't blame you about the parties. I know you and I aren't in the same situation, and I don't know exactly how you feel but I'm here for you girlie!! Love ya and miss ya! ♥♥
I understand! I understand!!!!
ReplyDeleteI, too, cried during that scene. I haven't scene "Up" yet...but I appreciate the warning.
We haven't put up a tree, or decorations, or anything. This is the third year in a row. Yes, I'm paper pregnant, and yes, we are matched and everything appears to point toward us having a little one in the next month.
But holidays are HARD!
You are not alone, my friend...not alone at all.
That's what the blog world is for! I think Melba's post had me unconsciously thinking about the journey again. Julie and Julia got me there too. I forgot about that movie. Definitely DO NOT see Up. I talked to another adoptive-mom friend who has a 7 year old (not fresh in the process) and she burst into tears as well. Good for you for avoiding stuff you don't want to do. I always forced myself to and I don't think that was the best thing to do. Have a great weekend!
ReplyDeleteI just posted about a day when I learned of 3 pregnancies. I have been doing pretty well lately but that hit me real hard.
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